أنا سوري

Think Different

2011-10-06T13:31:00.002-04:00

He was born on February 24th, 1955 to a Syrian immigrant "Abdulfattah Jandali" from the Homs area who later became a political science professor, and a German American "Joanne Schieble" who, according to his father, gave him up for adoption because her parents didn't accept the idea that their daughter had a child with a Syrian. I will spare you the details about Steve Job's life as you can hear it from him in the video below of his 2005 Stanford University commencement address.

If you're reading this post, you have certainly used some of his many visions to do so. Among his many life-changing visions were the personal computer, the mouse, computer fonts, the iphone, ipod, and ipad.
I don't think I've been more excited about any purchase as I was when I bought these products. Except for the ipad, I have them all. As in his early Apple commercial in the video below, he thought different, changed things, and pushed the human race forward.

Steve Jobs died yesterday of complications of cancer. Thank you, and Rest in Peace.

Blowing in the Wind

2011-10-02T15:36:00.002-04:00

How many roads must a man walk down,

before you call him a man?

How many seas must a white dove fly,

before she sleeps in the sand?

And how many times must a cannon ball fly,

before they're forever banned?

The answer my friend is blowing in the wind,

the answer is blowing in the wind.

How many years can a mountain exist,

before it is washed to the sea?

How many years can some people exist,

before they're allowed to be free?

And how many times can a man turn his head,

and pretend that he just doesn't see?

The answer my friend is blowing in the wind,

the answer is blowing in the wind.

How many times must a man look up,

before he sees the sky?

And how many ears must one man have,

before he can hear people cry ?

And how many deaths will it take till we know,

that too many people have died?

The answer my friend is blowing in the wind,

the answer is blowing in the wind.

Bob Dylan said in an interview that his songs will mean even more as time goes by. How true!!

خواطر مبعثرة

2011-09-22T21:30:00.003-04:00

كنت في الثانوي في الصف الحادي عشر جالس في الصف عم بتأمّل بأسئلة مذاكرة الفيزياء أنتظر حل من السماء. كانت الساعة١١ صباحآ. تطلعت ليميني أبحث عن مخرج من هالمأزق وشفت رفقاتي محتارين أكتر منّي. الوحيد اللي كان مشغول بالكتابة كان أعز أصدقائي، خلّينا نسميه غياث. أنا و غياث كنّا شبين في السابعة عشرة، هو كان الأوّلي في المدرسة بكل شيء ماعدا اللغة الإنكليزية اللي كانت إختصاص العبد الفقير كاتب هذا المقال. كنا شباب ماعلى بالنا هم، كان همّي الوحيد االإستيقاظ الصبح باكرآ والركض للمدرسة لشوف بنات الثانوي وهن رايحين على مدارسهن. كانت هديك الأيام عصيبة على بلدنا والعالم ميتة من الخوف. النسخة الأولى من حزب البعث حاكمة و قصص حماة و سجن تدمر والإعتقالات شغالة في كل أنحاء البلد. كان الخوف يغلغل في عروق العالم وكلمة إخوان تعني حكم إعدام مؤكّد لأي مواطن مهما على شأنه و منصبه

غياث كان شب ذكي جدآ وحتى االأساتذة كانوا يتعجبون من تفوقه الغير طبيعي. كنا نلعب رياضة سوا، ونتمشّى في الباحة أثناء الفرصة و نحكي عن السياسة و الأحداث الراهنة والمدرسة والمنهج و أي شيء يخطر على بالنا. كانت بشرة غياث بيضاء وشعره أشقر وطوله أعلى من معدّل الشباب في المدرسة، ولكنه كان متواضع جدآ

أثناء حيرتنا و بحثنا لحل لورطة الفيزياء، سمعنا صوت طرق على باب الصف. راح الآستاذ ليفتح الباب فنظرت لشوف مين عسى أن يكون جاي حل من السماء للمشاكل الفيزيائية اللي قدامي. ظهر من وراء الباب رجلين طوال بشوارب تخينة و لابسين ملابس عسكرية فوقها جاكيتين كاكي من اللي كان يلبسها أفراد الجيش و الأمن. سمعنا الرجلين عم يسألوا الأستاذ عن غياث. تطلعت ليميني لقيت صديقي رفع رأسه لأوّل مرّة عن ورقة المذاكرة. أشّر الإستاذ لغياث أن يخرج معهن. نظرت إليه مرة أخيرة وهو متجه نحو الباب، فرأيت الدم سحب من وجهه و سيماه الموت ظاهرة و كأنه يقاد إلى حبل المشنقة
مرت المذاكرة واليوم و الأسبوع والسنة ثمّ السنين و حتّى اليوم لا أدري ماحصل لصديقي. سمعت أنو بعض زملائنا من الشبيبة خبّروا عنه بعد أن دعي إلى إجتماع ترأسه أحد من المشبوهين في المدرسة، ولكن الله أعلم. بعد كم أسبوع ذهبت إلى بيته، ووقفت أمام الباب حوالي عشر دقائق بدون أن أجد الجرأة لدق الباب والسؤال عنه. خفت تطلعلي إمّه وتنهار عندما تراني
كان هاذا جو الرعب والخوف في تلك الأيام. ومتل قصة غياث في ألاف القصص. المشتبه فيه حتى لو كان بريء مفقود، والخارج جنّي مولود. وقتها صممت على ترك البلد رغم إنو ماكانلي أي علاقات سياسية

بدأ القرن الواحد والعشرين، وتحولنا إلى نظام جديد يؤمن بالإنفتاح والإنترنت والأمور اللي لم نسمع بها بحياتنا إلا سرآ أو في الأخبار. بدأت الحياة في بلدي تنتعش على الرغم من إستمرار الفساد وسوء الأحوال الإقتصادية لعامة الشعب

طبعآ من الصعب جدآ إنهاءعقود من القمع و الرشوة و السرقة في أيام أو أشهر معدودة. الصحف ووسائل الإعلام الغربية سمت الرئيس الجديد

" الدكتور الهادئ Mild-mannered Doctor"

وتحدّثت عن محاولات الإصلاح و تنحية جنود النظام القديم و تعيين وجوه جديدة لقيادة البلد نحو المستقبل. محطة
" "Diane Sawyer" في أمريكا و مذيعتها المعروفة " "ABC"

عرضت برنامج على مدى ثلاثة أيام تحدثت فيه بإعجاب غير مصطنع بسوريا و رئيسها الشاب.
كنت فخور جدأ لأقول لرفاقي الأمريكان أن هذه البلد التي تتحدث عنها مذيعتهم هي بلدي و مسقط رأسي

المذيعة نفسها التي أعدت البرنامج المذكور أعلاه أجرت تحقيقا آخر من فترة قصيرة قالت فيه "عندما قابلت الرئيس الأسد في ٢٠٠٧ كان الوقت مبكرآ للقول إذا كان الرئيس و أفكاره الجديدة ستتغلّب على جند النظام القديم و أساليبهم التقليدية، ولكن اليوم أغلب الناس يعتقدون أن الحرس القديم قد إنتصر" شاهدها هنا
كنت أراها عندما تقرأ الأخبار عن سورية و تعرض صور القتلى و الدمار يطغى على وجها الحزن و العجب "أهذه هي البلد التي أعجبت بها؟ لماذا يسمح هاذا الإنسان المتواضع الدمث بما يحصل لشعبه؟" هاذا نفس السؤال الذي يسأله أغلبنا كل يوم ياسيدتي
هل هي ثورة كما يحب البعض أن يسميها؟ طبعآ لا. إذآ ماهي؟ إنّها ضجر و قرف و كبت يغلي في أعماقنا منذ أكثر من أربعين عامآ، شوق لممارسة أبسط الحقوق التي يمارسها غيرنا كل يوم. هل هناك بديل جاهز قادر؟ قطعآ لا. هل هناك معارضة مقتدرة محترمة؟ السخيفين لم يقدروا أن يعقدوا إجتماعآ واحدآ يتفقو فيه على كم موضوع، والجواب طبعآ لا. هل من مبرّر لإطلاق النار على أطفال و متظاهرين عزّل؟ هل هناك سبب منطقي لحجز الآلاف و موت بعضهم تحت العذاب؟ بعد حرب تشرين إنقلب حماة ديارنا على الشعب و قتلوا الآلاف ولم تطلق رصاصة واحدة على جندي إسرائيلي
أخيرآ أسأل نفس السؤال الذي سأله نزار قباني منذ سنين عديدة

ليس جديدا خوفنا
فالخوف كان دائما صديقنا
من يوم كنا نطفة
فى داخل الأرحام
***
هل النظام فى الأساس قاتل؟
أم نحن مسؤولون
عن صناعة النظام ؟

إعذوروني، أفكاري مبعثرة و قلبي على بلدي و أهل بلدي. بتمنّا تكون قيادتنا ماعندها علم بالقتل اليومي و التخريب لأن جريمة القتل لا يصفح عنها بمضي الأيام و السنين
لكن و أنتم أعلم بعض الأمنيات لا تتحقق آبدآ
ودمتُم

Newton's Third Law

2011-08-31T10:12:00.000-04:00

For every action

there is an equal and opposite reaction

مع الإعتذار لعلي فرزات والأسف الكثير للأصدقاء اللي سألوا عنّي. كل عام وأنتم و سوريّا و كل السوريّين بألف خير، والله يمضّي أزماتنا على خير

إعترافات إرهابي

2011-08-16T16:20:00.006-04:00

ياسيّدي

لست أدري ما ملأني جنونآ

وحقدآ وغضبا

أخبروني أنّ الحريّة جنّةٌ

وأنَّ الديمقراطيّة جنَّةٌ

وأقرأوني كتبا

قالوا أنَّ ماحدث في تونس حقيقة

وفي مصر حقيقة

أقنعوني بربيع عربيٍّ

وأبكوني على حمص و حماة

سبوّا حماة الديار

وشبّيحة الّدمار

و نظام العار

و الإبن و الأبا

عشرون عامآ ياسيدي وأنا

أفعل ماتأمرون

أقرأ ماتكتبون

أرى ماتعرضون

أسمع ماتذيعون

أستنشق الهواء الذي تصنعون

و ألعن كلّ من هب و دبّا

لعنت الرأسمالية

و الملكية

و الإقطاعية

و العنصرية

و الشرق والغربا

ياسيّدي

ذهبت إلى الصلاة

كعادتي كل جمعة

أدعوا الربّا

طلبت الغفران لأمّي

و أبي و عمّي

و كل أمْتي

و رجوت الرحمن أن ينصر العربا

خرجت فجرّوني للأمام

يريدون إسقاط االنظام

وإباحة الكلام

و الإنتقام

لمن قتلوا في حمص

و حماة

والشام و درعا

وسقبا

لن أكذب ياسيّدي

صِحت مَعَهم

صفّقت مَعَهم

طالبتُ مَعَهم

شَعَرتُ مَعَهم

لحظاتٌ أنستني القهر

الذي دام حقَبا

يا سيدي

إني لا أطلب العطفَ

اليوم دفنت الخوفَ

أنا إرهابيٌّ

أنا إرهابيٌّ

وغدآ أفضل قادم

شاءَ نظامك أم أبا

يا حنونتي

2010-05-09T17:08:00.007-04:00

رجعت من البلد من فترة بعد زيارة قصيرة

تقبّلت التعازي بإمّي وزرت قبرها

كل يوم بالليل إقعد لوحدي وإبكي

كانت تصحا كل ماتسمع صوتي وتسألني إذا بدّي شي

حتّى وهيّ بعز المرض

ليوم اللي سافرت كانت ماتنام الليل إذا كنت مرضان

ماعد إسمع كلمة الله يرضى عليك

ولا حدا بيفيق الصبح ويصلّي ويقرالي سورة الواقعة مشان الرزقة

ياترى عم بارثيكي ولّلا عم برثي حالي ياحنونتي

ياترى المائكة اللي عيّنتهون لحمايتي لسّا شغّالين وللا أضربوا؟

كل يوم باتصل بالبيت، مافي جواب، لا حياة لمن تنادي

عم باستنّى معجزة ... بركي بترد عالتليفون وتصرخ من الفرح كلما كانت تسمع صوتي

حبّك وحنانك إمتد من الشام علي مدى الأرض والبحار لأمريكا

لمّا ودّعتك ودّعت حبي للحياة اللي بعرفها

ودّعت عيلتي وبلدي وأهلي و كل أحبابي

اللي كانو عايشين معي بحياتك واختفو لمّا رحلتي وتركتيني

بكرة بيجي سخيف بيقللي حاجتك... إنسا وعيش حياتك

بتأسّف إنو ماعرف متل حنانك وحبّك

بيتنا تسكّر وهجرته الحياة، حتّى الزرع الي زرعتيه مات

بس الغريب إنّي بسمعك عمتحاكيني كل يوم

كلمة الأرض والسما ترضى عليك بسمعها كل يوم

إشتقتلّك ياإمي، قد ماكنت مشتاقتيلي بحياتك

بيبقى كلمة واحدة بدي قللك ياها

أنا آسف ياحنونتي

آسف على كل شي طلبتيه مني ومالبيتو

آسف على كسر خاطرك بتغرّبي

ياحنونتي

Mom

2010-04-14T08:33:00.006-04:00

She was my guiding light... my knight in shining armor... my greatest inspiration...the greatest love I'll ever have. She brought me and my brother and sister up all alone after my dad passed away when we were still in our awkward years. She did it all with the minimal retirement salary of my dad, barely enough for one person and never asked anyone for anything. She taught me how to be strong and how to keep going when all the odds are stacked against you. She loved us endlessly without expecting anything in return. She always cried when I called her and told me how much she missed me. I called her two nights ago, and she could barely speak, I could barely hear her voice over the noise of her oxygen tank. She didn't want to hang up, but instead, she struggled to talk and hear my voice.
Last night, she passed away.
I'll be home soon to visit your grave. Please forgive me for not making it home sooner.
I love you mom. Rest in Peace.

The Longer I Run

2010-03-27T15:10:00.002-04:00

Inspiration has escaped me with all my travel the last few weeks, but I wanted to share this beautiful song and its lyrics with everyone. I hope you enjoy.

When my blood runs warm with the warm red wine,
I missed the life that I left behind.
And when I hear the sound of the black bird's cry,
I know I left in the nick of time.

Well this road I'm on is gonna turn to sand,
and leave me lost in a far off land.
So let me ride the wind till I don't look back,
and forget the life that I almost had.

If I wander till I die may I know whose hand I'm in.
If my home I'll never find
And let me live again.
The longer I run then the less that I find,
selling my soul for a nickel and dime,
breakin my heart to keep singing these rhymes,
losing again.

Tell my brother please not to look for me,
I ain't the man that I used to be.
Cause if my savior comes could you let him know?
I've gone away forward to save my soul.

Nomad

2010-03-22T18:24:00.003-04:00

I'm sorry if I've been away for too long. I'm back to my nomad life of travelling and living in a different hotel every week. I wish everyone the best till I'm back. Peace.

Too Much

2010-02-09T19:55:00.012-05:00

So we got hit with 3 feet of snow. Do you know what 3 feet mean? If a man's average height is less than 6 feet, then most of us will be submerged to our belly buttons or higher in that snow. Last few days, my feet are always cold, heart is barely ticking, and my car is slipping and sliding all over the road. I haven't seen the sidewalk in 4 days. Noone here dares to walk outside. Schools, government, Congress, airports, and some shops are still closed. I ventured out Saturday, the first day of the storm. Other than two other vehicles whose drivers were as crazy as I was, and a few snow plows, the streets were all clear. Layers upon layers of that thick white powder covered everything, streets, sidewalks, cars, houses, trees. All colors blened into black or white. It was like the earth was hit with a snow nuclear bomb, and only a few of us survived. Three or more lane highways and roads turned into a one lane alley narrower than the alleys of old Damascus. As if this all wasn't enough, it started snowing again tonight. We're expecting another foot of snow.

Last month I wrote a piece about snow and how wonderful and fun it can be. Here I am again getting tired of it. My theory always was that cold weather is easier to go through than hot simmering weather. You can always bundle up and dress warm for the cold weather. The heat can be unbearable when you have to venture out no matter how light you're dressed. This definitely is a different kind of cold. Blustery cold winds, freezing moisture, and confinement are ingredients of a lowsy atmosphere. Simply put, too much of a good thing, way too much.

I took some pictures while driving today. Enjoy.

I went out again this morning after the second storm hit us and took the pictures below.

Fear

2010-02-03T17:43:00.012-05:00

I came home two nights ago to an empty fridge. Haven't gone grocery shopping in a while, I decided to head to the supermarket to get my meat, cheese, milk, fruits, and favorite Ciabatta bread. It took me a while to find a place to park as the place was packed with customers. It seemed odd as it's usually not that busy after 7 at night. I finally walked in to find the shelves almost empty. It looked like this nation was going to war the next day, and everyone is stocking up on food for weeks to come. I picked up some stuff and headed to the check out counter. While waiting in line I overheard customers talking about the upcoming snow storm we were supposed to get. Three feet of snow ( About 1 meter) are supposed to hit us Friday and Saturday. Ahhh, that explains it all. I haven't had a chance to watch any news last week, so I was glad I decided to stock up. Here I am, stuck in the house for 24 hours without being able to even move my car out of the garage. Looking outside my window, it seems that I'm stuck for at least two more days here. I decided to start writing and bore you with some thoughts.

Ask any macho man out there what he fears, and the answer would most likely be "nothing". If that person was religious, God will be his only exception. Most of us feel like they fear nothing and we cruise through life with that belief. Alas, fear controls our lives in more ways than we could ever imagine. Fear controls our world and our mindsets as humans. It is built into our brains. We live our lives fighting our fears. I, like many others, feared not making it in my homeland, so I decided to migrate to the U.S. The fear of running out of food drove out the masses to the supermarket before the storm. Wars, natural distasters, bad economies, and uncertainties drive prices up and cause all kinds of choas in our markets.

Any economist out there will tell you that fear is the biggest factor in world economy. Fear of war in the Arabic gulf or Iran would drive the price of oil way up, even though it may never happen. The price of gold has recently gone up because people and investors are uncertain about the stock markets, currencies, and realestate. Gold seemed the most guaranteed commodity to keep its value. Fear of this, fear of that, fear of unemployment, fear of death, fear of clowns.... and so forth. Life still goes on.

Franklin Roosevelt once said "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself" How true? Fear can be healthy and can lead us to making the right decisions often, but controlling our fears is the key to living a happy life. " The key to change, is to let go of fear" Can we? We sure can let go of some fear, the bad and unreasonable kind, we sure can't let go of it all. Fear is here to stay, and our job is to control it and use it to our advantage.

Change

2010-01-13T15:16:00.005-05:00

"Change is Good" or is it now?
Most people never think of how different they've become over the years. We grow, and change, and our needs and wants change too. Our dreams and wishes take completely different paths from their starting routes. Looking back at my earlier days and what I wanted in life, I'm amazed at how different I've become, and how my dreams have turned around to the oppsoite direction. I have achieved most of my earlier dreams and wishes, and now I'm running back to where I started. Whoever said "Be careful what you wish for, it might come true" must've been through the same stage I'm going through in my life now.

Back in my teens and twenties, I used to think I was the skinniest person alive. I used to eat like a horse and never gain a pound. I used to pray to gain a few pounds, but to no avail. Now, I want to lose ten pounds and get back that flat stomach I used to have for a long time. It took me a few weeks to lose 5 of those pounds, and I'm still working on the rest.

Before I started my twenties, my greatest dream was coming to America. The idea used to consume my day and night dreams alike. My dream came to life when I got my visa. When I left the embassy that morning, I felt like I was seeing the world with a new set of eyes. I was on a plane for the first time a month later. Two decades have passed since that day, and my dream has turned around to coming back to where I started. We humans are funny creatures. We keep going around in circles. Our lives can only be understood going backwords, but we can only live it going forward.

I watch movies every now and then. I love a good movie with a touching story. The other day I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. After travelling and being away for a while, Benjamin comes back home. He says: "It's a funny thing about coming home... Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same.....You'll realize what's changed is you" . That could be mostly true. Things that seemed normal when I lived at home now seem odd. Simple behaviours such as driving, crossing a street, or smoking inside a public building never bothered me when I lived there. Now, they are constant reminders of how lagging behind we still are as a nation. Oddly, in the last couple of years, I feel our society and morality have taken many steps backwards. I'm an avid reader of Syrian news websites. Lately, I've been reading about crimes that were unheard of before. A brother killing his sister with the encouragement of the mother, a group of 4 young men taking turns raping a 10 year old child, bastards selling meat and food that's not fit for animal consumption to the public, so many murders and theft stories that compete with the level of ugliness known to crimes in the western world. Are we just aware of those crimes now because of the explosion of the internet use? I doubt it.

Change is good if it mostly means going forward. Positive change is what everyone looks for. I long for the day that I see us picking up good habits and using them to further ourseleves and society. It always seems we are evolving backwards in changing for the worst without gaining any grounds in technology, science, morals....etc. I hope we wake up and tackle imporant issues that plagued us like pollution, lack of good planning, and securing a better future for our children. At the rate we're going now, they are standing to inherit a hell of a mess that will keep us from going forward for decades.

I hope.

" The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams" Franklin D Roosevelt

A Picture is worth a thousand words

2010-01-10T17:20:00.011-05:00

Tight space

MaDonal? Must be a new company. I've seen those golden arches somewhere before though

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Taking showers in his case is redundant

I wonder how many non-arabic speaking patients he has

Chicks stop here? No wonder they're smiling

Hmmmm, just wondering what language that was

It's " BrsteeG for BARTYS & WEDEING"

What a prestigious name

24 Hour instant coffee?

Remembering you

2009-12-09T21:57:00.007-05:00

On a cool mid summer night

under the moonless skies

I sit outside and wonder

If you were ever my prize

You used to be my endless joy

I loved you in every fashion

your embrace was heaven to this boy

you were his only passion

We shed many skins and layers

We shared fights and prayers

We lived and loved, we kissed

Our beautiful times together, I dearly missed

Times changed, but my love never did

I stood by you in every bid

You had me wrapped around your finger

Good or bad, I'd still linger

Your face still shines in my dreams

many years passed, many states apart

Your memory is one that never leaves

your sweet love will forever fill my heart

*To El, wherever you are

Let it Snow

2009-12-06T00:26:00.014-05:00

Six weeks after settling down in Maryland, the Wahington DC metro area, I saw my first snow storm in 6 years. Since childhood, this white fluffy substance had the most wonderful effect on me. Everything looks so peaceful and toned while covered with layers of snow. Except for the noise of some cars spalshing melted snow to the side of the road, it seemed someone hit the mute button on all the other sounds and chose to redraw the world as we know it in plain white. Such a picturesque scene sends quiet waves of calmness over most people. Everything starts to move slowly, and we seem to forget the never ending rush we're always in.

It used to snow in Damascus at least once or twice a year when I was a kid. The happiest days were the ones I woke up with snow blanketing the streets outside. Deressed heavily and ready for battle, we used to go outside and play with the snow. Those white tender balls flowing out of our hands onto each other and unsuspecting passers. Such innocent joy came upon us when one of our balls hit an intended target and we instantly see the sometimes angry, other times pleasantly surprised expressions of our victims. Heavy snow days meant an instant day off from school and all other activities. They meant play and pleasure all day long.

Following my teens, I moved to Boston. Although snow was and still is plentiful there, it always brought me back to those happy days as a kid. An american girl I used to date got me into the art of snow man making, and donuts. Making donuts refers to driving a car fast in circles during a snow storm in the parking lot of a mall or a big shopping centers, and leaving marks all over that look like donuts. We just looked for empty parking lots, hit the gas, turned the wheel all the way, and skid around in circles. I even tried skiing a few times in the mountains of New Hampshire. Mountain skiing is the ultimate sport. If you think you're going to just slide and skid on the snow without any effort, you're in for a shock. Skiing takes alot of effort and athletic ability, and it drains your energy quicker than any sport. It's pure fun.

Living in the south for the past six years, I rarely saw any traces of snow. Maybe less than an inch once. Despite the fact I'm not a kid, neither a teenager anymore, I still get that childish, innocent, and fun feeling everytime the snow man drops by for a visit.

مسبّات

2009-11-28T23:51:00.007-05:00

أشّرت للتاكسي بإيدي، شحط فرام، سيارتين وراه لح يفوتو فيه
أكلنا أول مسبتين
إستأجرت سيارة بالبلد بس ماكنت إستعملها كتير لسببين: خايف يروح محل الصفة قدّام بيتنا،
وبعرف مالح لاقي محل صف مطرح مو رايح
على سوق الهال لو سمحت
زورني وبدا يسوق.... أكيد أكلت مسبة تالتة
مبيّن عليه مهزوز بدنو
شباك أخي، شايفك متدايق، الله يعينك، السواقة ببلدنا مو سهلة
بدا يشكيلي همّو
طلع معي قبلك واحد مغترب معفّن....طلع عدّادو ٣٠ ليرة
ناولني خمسين قلتللو والله ما معي كمالة
قام مارضي يترك لحتّا لقيت حدا يصرفلي الخمسين
أخدها ومشي وهو عم يتزوّرني
البغل مغترب ساكن بأمريكا
يعني عشرين ليرة ما بيطلعو نص دولار لهل أنجاس الأميركان
والله نسيت العد، كم مسبة صارو؟
بسيطة أخي، طوّل بالك، هدول بيصير طبعون متل أهل البلد اللي سكنو فيها، بتكترمصاريهون وبيزيد بخلهون
العما... فوق كل هالمسبّات زدتهون مسبّة ذاتية
وصلنا... طلع العدّاد ٢٦ ليرة... مدّييت إيدي على جيبتي...العما، فاضية... نسيان جزداني بالبيت
ولي.. لح يلحق كلهالمسبّات قتلة كمان ...مدّييت إيدي على جيبتي التانية...نسيان فيها دولارات... كم ميّة وعشرين وقطعة واحدة تبع الخمس دولارات
مسكت ورقة خمس دولارات... ناولتو ياها وإيدي عم ترجف.. خايف من مسبات بالجملة
مشان الله لا تواخذني أخي... نسيان جزداني بالبيت... ما صرلي يومين بالبلد ومعي هدول... بيطلعو شي ٢٥٠ ليرة. مسامح بالباقي... أصابيعك مو متل بعضها يا إبن الحلال
إنت مغترب بهديك البلاد كمان؟ لك ولي على هاليوم، وين بدّي إصرفها هي؟
أي بنك بيصرفلك ياها
أنو بنك وأنو صخام؟ شوأنا فاضي وقّف على بنك؟ وين بدّي صف السيارة؟
يللا سيدي بيعينك الله على غلاظتنا..سامحنا..فتحت الباب وبس بدّي إمشي
ولله كلامي مظبوط على هالأميركان المعفنين... تضربو تضربو شو مقرفين
فتحت باب التكسي وطلعت... بنفس اللحظة في بنت مارقة... إجا الباب بطريقها
العما بقلبك... مو شايف قدّامك؟
لا تآخذيه إختي... هادا مغترب معفّن... طعجت باب التكسي الله لايوفقك
لك أخ منكون يا ولاد بلدي... حتّى ببلدي ساويتوني غريب؟

On Pain, the internet, and other things

2009-11-22T19:13:00.014-05:00

Pain....that four letter word that makes most of us grin. That awful sensation in one or more of our body parts that makes us lose sleep and renders us unable to perform some simple daily functions we are used to take for granted. We, humans that is, are arrogant creatures. When we are healthy, feeling no pain or illness, we think we are invincible, untouchable, and indestructable. Pain hits, as simple as a toothache, and we succumb and get tossed out of the invisible fortresses we thought we lived in. Pain is the most humbling experience a human can go through. It serves as a reminder of how vulnerable we are. It hits humans indiscriminately with no regard to age, wealth, gender, race, or any other artificial status we created for ourselves.

I've been mostly pain free most of my life. With the exception of the usual headaches, muscle aches, toothaches, and maybe some stomach discomforts, I haven't suffered much at all. Towards the end of my long vacation back home, I felt a little bit of pain in my right arm. After I came back, the pain got worse. Sharp shooting pain that runs from my shoulder all the way to my finger tips. It got so bad that I wouldn't sleep for more than two hours at night, and I couldn't move my right arm without feeling that stabbing sensation. For weeks on weeks, I endured the pain hoping it will go away on its own. I'm the kind of person that hates waiting in doctors' offices and hospitals, and even before I decide to visit one, I try to diagnose any illness on my own, through the internet. I found out that the most likely cause for my pain would be a pinched nerve. One of the bones in my neck is pressuring the nerve that runs to my right arm and causing all that pain. It gets worse when I try to go to sleep as the mind has nothing to do except for dealing with that pain. I tried cold and hot patches, ointments and pain relievers, but they all failed. Finally, I gathered the courage to walk to a clinic. After a long wait, I was let in. The nurse had me fill out a medical history form, and asked me a million questions about my bad habits. They put me in a small room to wait for the doctor. An attractive middle aged lady finally walked in and started talking to me about my illness. I told her what I was experiencing and added what I thought I had, my own diagnosis that is. She sent me in for X-rays, and an hour later the results came back. The same diagnosis I predicted was thrown at me. Okay, now please give me a solution. Oh, I'm going to perscribe some muscle relaxer and pain medication, but there's nothing else we can do for you. You have to go to a physical therapy clinic or wear a neck brace. It's not a chronic or a dangerous illness, and it usually ends up going away on it's own with rest and therapy. I was also told to take some time off, stay away from spending too much time henched at my computer or laptop. What? Most of my work is done online....Most of my personal life is handled online.... I buy most of my stuff online.... I meet people online.... I blog.... I stay in touch with my family and friends online..... I can't watch باب الحارة or الحصرم الشامي online anymore? Nope, I had to cut all that crap out and start acting like a cave man, yeah, like that primitive me that lived before I bought my first PC in 1995. I had to stop blogging for now. I had to drive to a store before I checked out what they had online, and I had to use the phone to call my friends and family instead of writing emails. My digital life was over untill I took care of my pain.

Ahhh, why do we have to feel pain? Why do we need that rude awakening? Why can't we have a life without pain? Well, some people do, and they rarely live past the age of 25. They are people with what doctors call Congenital Insensitivity to Pain, or CIP in short. Kids who are born with this disorder do not feel any physical pain. They end up with rotting teeth, broken skulls, and untreated infections without being alerted by that pain.

I am thankful for that pain that told me I need to take care of myself although I want it gone. I am thankful for those of you who missed me, and even those who did not. I am thankful to experience how beautiful it is to hear a relative or a good friend over the phone and have a normal conversation.

It feels good to find out there still is a life out there without computers and the internet, but I still want to get better and enjoy my life the way I choose to.

عيد

2009-09-18T16:27:00.006-04:00

عيد بأية حـال عـدت يـا عيـد

بما مضى أم لأمـر فيـك تجديـد

أمـا الأحبـة فالبيـداء دونـهـم

فليـت دونـك بيـداً دونهـا بيـد

لم يترك الدهر من قلبي ولا كبـدي

شيئـاً تتيمـه عيـن ولا جـيـد

ماذا لقيت مـن الدنيـا وأعجبـه

أني بما أنا شـاك منـه محسـود

مع الإعتذار للمتنبي

وكل عام وإنتو بألف خير

Blogging week against taking Ramadan off إسبوع التدوين ضد وقف الشغل خلال شهر رمضان

2009-09-17T23:28:00.002-04:00

The author of this post took the whole month of Ramadan off.

معطّل.... الدنية رمضان... كل العالم بالبلد بتبطّل تشتغل... كمان بدكون ياني إكتب؟

On being a Moderate Conservative

2009-09-13T16:21:00.018-04:00

Well.... that's who I am. Although this post might seem like I owe someone an explanation, I sure don't. I wanted to do it for myself. I wanted to define who I am for my own sanity, morals, and believes. I will not mention any particular bloggs or bloggers. Living in Syria for the first half of my life made me a conservative, and spending the second half in the USA added the moderate tag to it. I do believe and practice my religion, not as good as I should, but my believes are firm. God knows, I had my shares of mistakes and sins. When you live in a foreign country for more than 20 years, you can't help sometimes but try to adjust and avoid being left alone or left out. This is in now way a justification for my mistakes. It's just an acknowledgement that I had my fair share of many.

It's only logical for one to believe there's a higher power that controls everything. I look at the universe and how it's setup, and I'm constantly amazed at the perfection of our creator. How can anyone believe that this whole system started on it's own? The perfection of our bodies and minds, the perfection of our beautiful planet, and the amazingly vast skies and distant planets are enough clues. Walk to any beach, and stare far away at the endless sea, and think for a minute that despite all our technological advances we still haven't even discovered 1% of what goes on in the deep bottom of the oceans.

Where is the moderate part then? That part comes in play in accepting the fact that others think differently, dealing with those people in a normal and civilized way, and having a constructive relationship with them. Tolerance and acceptance are the keywords. God created us equal, and yet we all differ in many ways. I do accept the fact that many people have different religions and believes than mine. I respect all religions that make sense, specially the major three, Islam, Christianity, and Judism. These three main religions should always co-exist in peace and harmony. Unfortunately, this is never the case nowadays. Extremists from those three religions make life much more difficult for the majority of us, and they are destroying our world as we know it. Think of the world before September of 2001, and see how different it is now. Follow what goes on in the occupied palestinian land and how the palestinian children grow up looking at tanks destroying their houses, and machine guns killing their families, and imagine how they'll grow up and what mentality they'll have. All these acts are comitted against them by the only state ever founded on the basis of a religion. Acceptance also means respect. I think these religions should respect each other, specially the holidays and sacred days. When I was a kid I used to tag along with my father to his work sometimes. He had a Christian friend who worked in the same office. During Ramadan, that friend never ate or smoked in front of his muslim coworkers. This is the respect we need to give and expect. It's sad that some Syrian and Arab bloggers show no respect for this holy month and fill their blogs with offensive posts and statements. If you don't believe in some view, you can at least abstain from offending those who do. If you have nothing nice to say, say nothing.

My tolerence has no limits, yet my acceptance does not extend to everyone and everything. I do tolerate homosexuals. I have worked with, and still personally know some. I have no problem engaging in work or a friendly conversation or even an exchange of educated ideas and issues with them, but I will never accept their lifestyle as the norm. Nor will I accept it when they flaunt this lifestyle in my face in the purpose of trying to make our socities accept it in all its shapes and forms. How can we accept that two males or two females can start up up a normal family? Other than adopting from a product of a normal relationship, how can they ever have kids? Our human specis will seize to exist if this lifestyle was ever a norm or a majority. Even the most tolerating of parents are usually disappointed or shocked if they find out one of their kids is a homosexual. The "don't ask, don't tell" policy that president Clinton started concerning gays in the American military is the perfect solution for that institution. It just tells gays and lesbians that they will not be asked about their sexual orientation, and they shouldn't admit or flaunt their lifestyle among their fellow soldiers. I think this policy can apply to civil life too. Do not flaunt this in my face and expect me to take it for granted. I've seen Arab bloggers who loaded their bloggs with gay adjectives and even some disgusting pictures of semi-nude gay kissing and males holding dildos in their hands. Why talk about "Gay Pride"? Just be proud of who you are as a human being, and what good you do to your society and others. Ever heard of a straight person talking about "Straight Pride". It just makes no sense. Why throw your sexual orientation and preferences in the middle of every cause? Why wouldn't I just shut up and say nothing like I stated in my last paragraph? It's because those acts offend me and many others deeply, and I'm not being offensive or promoting any hatred campaign.

Saying all that, I will not hate. Hate is a very strong word that I don't use lightly.

Just live and let live.

That's all.

Blogging week against Consumption of all Beans مدوّن ضد إستهلاك الحمّص والفول

2009-09-11T11:46:00.030-04:00

As per an agreement made with Abu Fares last week,I'm fulfilling my part by starting a blogging week against the consumption of all beans, Chickpeas and Fava beans in particular, in our beloved part of the world. We all know the popularity of such toxic elements in our daily diets. This popularity passed through all environmental, dietic, and morality censors in our society. We are a nation whose daily life is controlled by Fava beans and chick peas. In this twenty first century, it's about time someone raised a flag and protested this infiltration. In the next few paragraphs, I'll prove my point against this poison.

1. While beans might be a cheap and essential source of vitamins and calories, their side effects outweigh any potential benefits we might gain. Gases and the emission of toxic waste are a major headache caused by these elements. We have enough pollution as is in our skies from automobiles to add more to the mix. If you can think of the thousands of tons of those beans consumed daily on our tables, you can imagine the tons of bad air emitted as a result. Add a spark to these fumes, and you'll have an outrageous fire that will consume a large area because of the endless supply of fuel around it. I have no doubt some of the major arsens, like the last one in Damascus that consumed the ministry of tourism, was at least partially caused by these fumes.

2. These beans are in no way or shape a good dietary source. We all know about the weight problems our society faces, and chickpeas and fava beans, are a major cause. The calorie count in each dish is outrageous, and reaches as high as thousands of calories, well more than we need on a daily basis. We sure don't want our kids to wear adult size clothes while they're still in their teens. This causes them social embarrassment and adds to our financial burdens as well.

3. The social embarrassment and anti-social behavior caused after consuming these beans are humungous. All bean consumers seem to shy away from public outings. Gases trapped inside a human body without the ability to release cause great discomfort and withdrawl from common physical and social activities. Many people ignore the warning signs and still participate in social gatherings, which would result in a blame game and arguments and a weird atmosphere when emmissions are finally released into thin, and already polluted atmosphere. After a sad episode or two of these social mishaps, one tends to stay away from such gatherings, which can lead to lonliness and even suicide in some cases.

4. Holding those gases inside without a realease leads them to travel up all the way inside the human body to the brain. This trip and the final destination are reasons for catastrphic results. Shi**y ideas and outrageous trains of thoughts are results of these gases residing in the brain. This post was the result of such fumes journey to the brain. The author consumed a large dish of fava beans mixed with chickpeas, olive oil, lemon, and garlic. You are being subjected to reading the sad results in this case. I'm sure many politicians, planners, and executives come up with ideas after such consumption. This is the major source of wars, bad economies, and bankruptcy in our part of the world.

I'm sure there are many other problems and results that will never be tackled. Rememeber the movie The Silence of the Lambs? Dr. Hannibal Lecter told Clarice that he ate one of his victims liver with some fava beans. Could the beans have caused his canibalism in that case? We may never know.

Please join me in boycotting these ingredients and finding a safer alternative.

Let's not forget

2009-09-04T23:22:00.025-04:00

Let us not forget that while we sit around our daily Ramadan tables there are still people suffering and dying of famine.

This picture above of a vulture waiting for a child to die of hunger was taken in Southern Sudan in 1994. It won the Pulitzer prize for that year.
While this feast in the picture below was taking place at the other side of the Red Sea.
How many children do you think this dish would've fed?

مطر

2009-08-29T12:53:00.010-04:00

المطر هون بتنزل كل يوم. خير وشجر وزرع وخضار على مد النظر. طول النهار بتشوّب و بتعبّق، بعد الظهر بتنفتح أبواب السما وبيقول الكريم خدو. مطر غزير مامنشوفو بعز الشتاء بسوريا. بيوم واحد بالصيف بينزل مطر أكتر من اللي بينزل بشهر كامل عنّا. إذا مابتصدقو تفرّجو عالفيديو

طيّب مابيكفّي الفقر المدقع

وتلوّث البيئة

ووساخة الشوارع

والفساد المتفشّي

والرشاوي

والغش

و الأكل الفاسد

و الخضرة المسقية بمياه المجاري

ونبع الفيجة ونهر بردى النشفانين

والشوب الحرّاقي

والعراقيين المشرّدين

والدّعارة

والموبايلات

والحكي عالعالم

والأسعار

والدخنة بسما مدنّنا

والسيّارات و الباصات والزمامير

والحوادث

وأزمة المرور

والكهربة المقطوعة

والأطفال المساكين

والمدارس وهم البكالوريا؟

بقول يارب لاإعتراض على حكمك بس ليش مابيجينا متل هالخير؟

برجع بتذكّر قوله تعالى

“لا يصلح الله ما بقوم حتى يصلحوا ما بأنفسهم”

الله يهدينا ويصلح حالنا

I fall To Pieces

2009-08-27T13:28:00.013-04:00

Patsy Cline is an American icon. She was a fantastic singer with an unforgettable voice. She passed away, long before most of us were born, in a plane crash on March 5th, 1963.

I'm here to share with you one of the best songs she ever made.

Enjoy:

I fall to pieces,
Each time I see you again.

I fall to pieces.

How can I be just your friend?

You want me to act like we've never kissed.

You want me to forget, pretend we've never met.

And I've tried and I've tried, but I haven't yet.

You walk by and I fall to pieces.

I fall to pieces,Each time someone speaks your name.

I fall to pieces.

Time only adds to the flame.

You tell me to find someone else to love,

Someone who'll love me too,

the way you used to do.

But each time I go out with some one new,

You walk by and I fall to pieces.

Download I fall to pieces

وحدة

2009-08-26T22:46:00.007-04:00

من عشرين سنة وأنا وحيد

منأوّل ما تركت و سافرت

عندي أصدقاء كتير هون

عرب و كل الجنسيات

بدي أعمل فرع للأمم المتحدة لحالي

تجوّزت وطلّقت

ورجعت خطبت وفسخت

بس شعور الوحدة مافارقني

حتى لو كنت بغرفة مليانة

أو حفلة

الوحدة بتضل واقفة بوشّي

الغربة صارت وطني

والأمل رفيقي الدائم

انزلت عالبلد

بالمطار عطيتن جوازي الأميركي

ختمو وزورني وأشّرلي إنو فوت

فقت الصبح، ريحة الدخان و زمامير السيارات

الكهربا مقطوعة وميّة الحمّام عم تنزل بالقطرة

غريبة، لسّا حاسس بالوحدة

أخدت أهلي عالمطعم، لطشوني بالفاتورة

مبيّن علييّ غريب

ووحيد

طلعتلي الوحدة عم تتمهزأ

فكرك هربت منّي؟

وراك و الزمن طويل

أهلك و رفقاتك يا أجدب معتبرينك غريب

عرفانين زيارتك قصيرة

ورجعتك إلي

خلصت إجازتي

وصلت عالمطار بأمريكا

ناولتها الجواز، تطلّعت عليّي وتبسّمت

وين كنت؟ بإجازة

باتمنّى تكون إنبسطت بإجازتك

تفضّل، welcome back home

لقيت الوحدة عم تستنّاني

حاملة لوحة عليها إسمي

طوّلتها، إشتقنالك

ذكريات رمضان

2009-08-22T22:22:00.017-04:00

رمضان بالشام كان شهر الهدوء و شهر الحزن.... كنت مراهق واقف على الشباك أنتظر أذان المغرب..... شارعنا دائمآ مزدحم بالمارّة و السيارات......رمضان قبل الإفطار كان الوقت الوحيد اللذي يخلى فيه هالشارع الصاخب

كنت أحس بسكونة عجيبة، بطمأنينة عندما أقضي هالساعة قبل الإفطار عالشباك أحدّق بالطريق الفاضي... أستغرب وين راحو كل هالبشر والآلات المتحركة الصاخبة اللي كانت تؤرق نومي كل صباح...... سبحان الله كيف يغيّر الأحوال

في هاذا اليوم، ٢٦ رمضان سنة ١٩٨٢ رحت على مضايا أنا و رفيقي... إشترينا أواعي العيد، بنطلون و كنزة وصباط و كم غرض تاني

أوضاعنا المادية وأنا صغير كانت متواضعة جدّآ.... كنت إشتغل بالصيف لطلّع مصاريفي... والدي كان موظف عادي والمعاش دوبو يكفينا....بس رغم القلّة والدي كان إنسان عزيز و كريم.... الحمد لله ماحتجنا أحد

.رجعت من مضايا قبل الإفطار بحوالي ساعة ...وقفت عالشباك أنظر عالطريق الفاضي

من بعيد شفت إمرأة في الأربعينات ماشية في إتجاه بيتنا... لمّا قرّبت شفت إنها حاملة كيس بلاستيك شفاف واضح فيه شوية خضرة، خيار و بندورة و ماشابه مع صطل لبن صغير.....الظاهر إحتاجت هل شغلات بأخر لحظة قبل الإفطار...وجهها تحت الحجاب كان مرهق... مبيّن تعبانة بحياتها... الله يعين العالم...صارت تحت شباكنا ماشية عالرصيف....إرجعت إطّلّع على لاشيئ...على الفراغ أستمتع بالهدوء

فجأةً وقّف الصمت وحل محلّو صوت دواليب سيارة مسرعة عم تحاول توقّف.... بعدين صوت خبطتين

إتطلعت لتحت الشباك لقيت المرة ملقحة عالأرض... رأسها عم ينزف ودمها مختلط مع اللبن والخضار اللي كانت بالكيس اللي حاملتو

ضربتها سيارة فيها شابّين وهيّ ماشية عالرصيف.... المسكينة طارت بالهوا ووقعت على راسها

طلعوا المجرمين من السيارة... لفّوها بالمانطو اللي كانت لابستو ورموها في المقعد الخلفي و راحو

كل هذا حصل بخلال دقيقة واحدة... ماقدرت إتكلّم لساعتين.... كيف؟.. ليش؟... عم دوّر على جواب... لا حياة لمن تنادي

مانمت هديك الليلة... تاني يوم دريت إنها أرملة عم تربّي تلات أولاد... توفّت بالمستشفى... رموها هنيك و هربو

الليلة التالية ليلة القدر...والدي صابتو نوبة قلبية... أخذناه على مستشفى المواسات لإنها ببلاش... مارضيو يحطّو بالعناية المشدّدة... يمكن ماكان في سرير فاضي وماكان عنّا واسطة....أوّل يوم عيد الأضحى إجتو نوبة قلبية ثانية وتوفّى قبل ماينقلوه للعناية المشدّدة بساعة

الله يرحمو ويرحمها ويرحم أمواتنا جميعآ

من هداك اليوم ماتطلّعت من هالشبّاك

أكبر دب في العالم Dubya

2009-08-20T20:48:00.015-04:00

This is probably the only time you'll read a post here about politics or a politician. I hate politics with a passion, and I hate politicians even more. The world has enough crooks and thieves for us to bring more and hand them a public office. But, this is how socities run. It's a necessay evil.

Say what you want about the USA, but this country is home to countless ethnic groups and nationalities. There is not another country that has that many immigrants prospering and making a decent living. I personally have worked with Americans and foreigners alike since I came here in 1988. I've been treated like a family memeber by many Americans and have blended in smoothly. This country has been, and will be for a long time, my second home. I've been treated nicely because I showed respect as a guest by speaking the language, and working hard legally, something that some immigrants unfortunately fail to do.

I'm here to talk about only one idiot in particular. His name is George W Bush. Bushie, the liar, Dubya (Funny pronounciation of the W in his name), baby Bush, Boy George, Bush Lite, Bushollini, George Wrong Bush, Giggling Murderer, The Little Turd from Crawford, the Little man in the Big chair, and War Chimp are some of his many nicknames. He reigned this country for 8 years, and destroyed the world in the process. An ex alcoholic and drug user who had no qualifications whatsoever to run a small town, nevermind the United States of America, except for his father's money and influence. The whole world hated the US, including its closest allies, while Dubya practiced his cowboy ways of starting wars and killing civilians. Civil liberties were violated in the country that created them. Innocent people were arrested and jailed without a court order for stupid reasons like mistaken identity.

You don't need me to tell you what Dubya did. The whole world knows. It might be a little bit late, but I'm just here to say this: Goodbye Dubya, and good riddance. يا دب يا

Ramadan on the Go

2009-08-18T13:13:00.021-04:00

I hate being on the move. I also hate hotels. In the past two years I've lived in hotels more than any other place, weeks at a time. I'm going to Philadelphia in a week. I have to settle in a hotel for a while everytime we hit a new market. Priceline assigned me the Sheraton near the airport. I stayed in that hotel for over a month before, and half of its staff know me. Despite the service and the comfort, hotels make me feel detached. They make me lose the sense of being home. When I'm home, I have my own rituals. Cooking, cleaning, socializing, and of course, watching TV. I love American Football . To all of you soccer fans, it might seem like a bunch of huge guys hitting and attacking each other, but to someone who knows its rules and schemes, it's a very smart game. There are thousands of plays on defense as well as offense. I also watch news, sitcoms, and movies. Three items are always on when I'm home; my TV, my laptop, and my fridge.

Home, that 4 letter word I mention in almost every post. When I'm here, it refers to my own place, my sanctuary. The place that has all my junk, clothes, electronic toys, and everything I've collected over the years. The place that I'm always comfortable walking around wearing only my shorts. The place where I walk out to the front yard and see my next door neighbor working on her garden dressed in those tight pink shorts.
-Good morning neighbor, it looks like it's gonna be a beautiful day
-Yeah
-We're having a BBQ (a cook out or "mashawi") this Saturday if you wanna come over
-I wish, but I'll be in Philly for a while
-Again? You just got back from there
I know. That's my life.

Philadelphia, Phila, Philly, or the city of brotherly love as we call it here, is a very diverse town. It's a melting pot of whites, blacks, asians, arabs, and indians among other nationalities. It's also a strange mixture of nice neighborhoods along with very dirty ones. Parking and potholes حفر are the two most nagging problems there. I piled up over $800 in parking tickets while I was there. It's also home of the famous Philly cheese steak sandwich. The movie Rocky was filmed there featuring the famous steps he trained on which belong to the Philadelphia Museum of Arts. The northeast section of the city is packed with Arab families. You can see store and restaurant signs posted in Arabic. Restaurants like Saad and Al-sham are part of that city's many attractions. Falafel and Shawerma vending trucks are also very common there. There's also a large community of black African Muslims there called Alahbash الأحباش. I was told they were a seperate muslim sect like Sunnis and Shia.

I've been forunate enough to see and live in many cities and states in this vast country إذا أحب الله عبده أراه أرضه. It's never much fun when you're away from the place you call home for an extended period, but it's always good to see and experience new places and cultures. I haven't seen Ramadan in Syria for a long time, and it'll probably be even longer. My ultimate goal is spending one of the coming Ramadans at home soon.
Meanwhile, I'll be spending this one in Philly. I wish you all the happiest Ramadan ever, and the most prosperous Eid. كل عام وأنتم بخير

خطبة

2009-08-17T13:25:00.012-04:00

مرحبا خالة

أهلين وسهلين، تفضل عالصدر

١. بأنو ولاية ساكن؟ طيب شو الفرق إذا كنت بألاسكا مثلآ؟

٢. شو بتشتغل؟ سؤال معقول بس معناه أديش بتعمل مصاري؟

٣. عندك بيت بالشام؟ لا ولله بنزل بالفورسيزون كلما بزور أهلي

٤. متجوز هنيك؟ لأ، بس عندي كم صديقة عزيزة

٥. بتفكر ترجع شي يوم؟ إي بس عم بستنى ليصيرو ٥ ملاين دولار

٦. عندي إبن خالت بنت عم عمتي بكاليفورنيا، قريب عليكون؟ بتعرفو شي؟ صارو سؤالين. إي، لحشة حجر، إللا ما كون مقابلو

٧. مافي بنات عرب للجواز هنيك؟ يمكن بس أنا حابب كتر عددنا بولايتي

٨. وين ساكنين بالشام؟ أنا بالفور سيزون بس أهلي بالحارة تبعنا

٩. كل أديش بتنزل عالبلد؟ والله ناوي بالشهر مرتين، أخر مرة طولتها شوي . تمان سنين

١٠. الدنية شوب كتير اليوم ماهيك؟ والله الفور سيزون كان رطوبة كتير بس برّة يمكن شوب

تاني يوم

مرحبا جار. بدي كيلو لبن

تكرم عينك، سمعت إنّك عم تخطب

والله عم حاول، شو عرّفك؟

إجو سألو عليك مبارح بالليل

تاني يوم بالليل

مساء الخير، مفتاح غرفة ٢٠٢ لو سمحت

أهلين إستاذ، إنشالله ألف مبروك الخطبة

أنو خطبة؟ شو عرّفك إنّو عم بخطب؟

إجو سألو عنّك اليوم الظهر، قلتلّون أحسن زبون عنّا

فتّحت عيوني، أمي فوق راسي

شباك ياعيني عم تحكي بنومك؟ الله يجعلو خير

Children

2009-08-16T22:24:00.010-04:00

I was driving down a narrow street in Damascus near the Sha'alan district. I rolled down the windows on that cool eve and listened to a tune while the traffic came to a crawl. A little girl, just like this one in the picture, approached me with tears rolling down her face and a box of gum in hand asking me if I wanted to buy one. She couldn't have been over 7 years old. The sound of her sniffling while she shed the tears still haunts me to this day. Whoever sent her to do that, how could they?

Everytime I stop at the light at Shahbandar square this little girl and her two younger brothers are standing there. She's around 10 years old, with dirty blond hair, wearing the same old rags day in and day out. She waits for the red light to do its magic and stop cars, then she approaches drivers trying to sell them candy, gum, or a piece of air freshner. One hot afternoon I was behind a row of cars at that light, and I saw her approach a man inside a nice beige new Mercedes. She knocked on the window offering her merchandise. The car door suddenly opened up with force knocking her along with her gum to the ground. Dressed in a black suit, he got out and kicked her while she was trying to get up then went back to his car as the light turned green. She tried to pick up her fallen goods, and was almost run over by him in the process while he was speeding off.

How could he?

How could they?

How could we?

النظافة من الإيمان

2009-08-11T20:24:00.011-04:00

This post was inspired by a comment that was posted in the previous article by a fellow blogger. Omnia wrote: "It makes me laugh to see Syrians making groups like "support Khawla " group.. I mean the little girl needed urgent operations, and what ppl could do here is joining groups.and me myself feel the same stupidity, when I write about anything troubles me in Syr, like the last post I wrote about محمية الفرنلق , while writing the post I felt stipud, I think writing this post didn't help the forest in any mean, maybe renting a car and taking some of the trash out would have helped more!" This little comment hit me like a ton of rocks after what I've seen visiting Syria. Flashbacks of bad scenes rushed through my head and I wanted to bring it to attention.

Cleanliness is next to godliness النظافة من الإيمان. All Syrians know that, and most practice it at home. But when it comes to the outside world, our streets and forests, this rule takes a side step to a new rule; get rid of your trash anywhere. I saw trash being thrown from balconies and cars with no regard to who might be the recepient on the other end. I was standing in my aunt's yard when a kid threw trash from the third floor balcony. This was not just some accident. I heard stories like that constantly. Women fill up their trash bags and throw it from their balconies to the streets. Friday outings which are a Damascene ritual where every family there goes somewhere where there's shade and trees turn our landscape into a dumpster at the end of the day. Take a drive from Damascus to Lattakia, and you'll see plastic bags and trash littered all along the endless highways. Deserts, forests, fields, lakes and all are all littered with trash and plastic bags. Isn't it time we taught our kids this behavior is wrong? Isn't it time we cared about our cities and country in general as much as we care about keeping our houses clean? Isn't it time some volunteers start a campaign to clean up our streets and spread the word around? I dare the Syrian bloggers who live back home to start that, and I promise I'll join and do my part each time I go home. We have a beautiful country, one that Most arabs and foreigners love to visit, and we are destroying it gradually with our own trash. Just like Omnia suggested, actions speak louder than words.

We, Syrians that is, like to blame everything wrong in our cmmunity on the government. The government did this, and the government didn't do that, while we practice طناش carelesness every day of our lives. We also like to blame everyone else for our shortcomings. Am I generalizing? You bet I am. It's what I've seen and experienced, and we all know it's true. As much as I hate sounding like a preacher, I feel this issue is urgent enough to forgive my lecture. It's time we did something and caused a change no matter how small. As a wise man said "Be not afraid of going slowly; be only afraid of standing still"

Unsocial Networking

2009-08-08T23:00:00.007-04:00

"Oh my God, you don't have a facebook account?" She gave me a dirty look that spoke volumes about what she thought of my ignorance and anti-social behavior.
No, I don't, and I don't intend to start one up anytime soon either. I have to admit I tried MySpace for about a year, and recently Facebook for a couple of weeks. The two experiences were almost identical, boring, empty, and meaningless. All I did was stare at the profiles and pictures of "friends", and I use this term loosely. These "friends" never communicated with me, except for maybe a comment or two and I knew that I'll never end up meeting any of them. It seemed their only purpose behind adding me was to increase their "friends" count. Whatever happened to the good old-fashioned ways of picking up the phone, emailing, text messaging, or instant messaging a real friend? I can't speak much about Twitter or Orkut as I never even visited the sites, but I imagine they're all alike.

"Facebook helps you connect and share with the people in your life."
يساعدك فيس بوك على التواصل والتشارك مع كل الأشخاص في حياتك
Wow, so I can't connect with anyone I know unless I use Facebook? Or would Facebook help me get a better connection with those people? I beg to differ.
"As of today, 250 million people are using Facebook to stay updated on what's happening around them and share with the people in their lives..."
I must be some odd anti-social moron like the lady suggested. I mean what are the chances 250 million people can be wrong, and I'm right? I'm not sure. All I know is that these netwroking sites didn't serve any purpose for me, in particular, the purpose specified in their home pages.
I watched the 60 MINUTES interview with Mark Zuckerberg the 23 year old founder of Facebook (He looks 17 by the way). In case you didn't know, 60 minutes is the most watched and respected CBS news program in the USA. It aires every Sunday night. Mr. Zuckerberg couldn't crack a real smile and looked like one of those outcasts that couldn't muster any courage to talk to anyone in college. The company is worth 15 billion dollars, and he's personally worth over 3 billion. His response to the interviewer after stating these facts was that he still lives in a one bedroom apartment and sleeps on a matress on the floor. A lonely nerd that needed friends started that and the world followed. Welcome to the 21st century. It's all about money here. Facebook has been accused of using its subscribers' private information to sell ads. This social netwroking scam has been embeded in our brains as the next thing for the sole purpose of making money to the corporations that owns them. Yes ladies and gentlemen, they are owned by money-making American companies. This graphic was posted on MySpace homepage enticing new customers to sign up. I'll leave it up to you to figure out what kind of intended audience it was aimed at.

The next argument for using these services would be to aquire new "friends". Do we really need those so-called "friends"? Last time I was on MySpace I had over 50 "friends", and other than exchanging a few comments or a two-line email, there was hardly anything else to speak of. Most of the emails and the "friend" requests I got there lead to porn websites.

I have no doubt these networking sites can be useful to some busy people. The type of celebrities and politicians and media people can use it to update their fan base on a regular basis. But notice how I used the word fan in the previous statement. That's so far off from the intended purpose of staying in touch with friends. I don't think 250 million people belong to the category that can use Social Networking sites and benefit from them.

Why am I ranting and raving about social networking? Well, the service might do well in the American and western culture, but in our Syrian and Arabic societies there's just no use for it. It never seizes to amaze me how many bloggers are so devastated over Facebook being blocked in Syria. Others were also angry about president Asssad starting a Facebook page while it's still blocked back home. I'm not sure if a president ever has the time for this nonsense. I saw the page, and the pictures look authentic, but anyone could've started this page.

For now, I don't need Facebook or Twitter. I don't need MySpace or Orkut. I'm just happy with my little Blog sharing what I choose to.

Long live the Blog

2009-08-05T20:24:00.011-04:00

I was introduced to the Syrian blogsphere right before my last trip home in June 2009. This was my first visit in almost 9 years, so I did some online research about Syria and Damascus in particular. Only then did I stumble upon a mountain of Syrian bloggers and their pages. To be honest with you, I had no clue this society ever existed. I felt so left behind since I've been online for over 15 years, and blamed myself for not digging into the Syrian presence in this expanding phenomenon. My online experience with Syrian elements was limited to exchanging emails with my brother and a few friends, and reading a couple of news websites.

A great number of these bloggers talked about politics, which happens to be my least favorite subject. However, others tackled many other issues and subjects and are very good at it. I felt like a kid in a candy store, and started indulging myself. My writing fever started to surface. I haven't written anything since my last college experience 6 years ago. The two classes I rememeber that involved writing were my English and Career Development classes. I enjoyed these classes because of the writing involved, but soon after I got busy with life, work, and the daily struggles. A hunger inside me suddenly surfaced, and this blog came to life. I didn't intend to talk about any specific issues or subjects. I just wanted to express random thoughts about my life and my recent visit to Syria in my own primitive way. I found this new form of public diary and self indulgence to be fascinating and addictive. One gets the feeling he's speaking to a large audience without the jitters and anxiety the very presence of this audience creates.

I do realize that I'm not more than a wanna be writer at best, but this urge to share and keep updating my blog has taken over and became a daily ritual. All my furstration that builds up throughout the day seems to evaportae while practicing my blogging routine.

Long live the Blog.

خلص الخبز

2009-08-02T01:20:00.016-04:00

كلما بنزل عالبلد بوقف بأوروبا

يا بأمستردام، يا بروما، أو لندن

وقبل ما أطلع بالطيارة لسورية

لازم إقرا قل أعوذ برب الفلق

من شر ما خلق

بستعوذ ميت ألف مرة

وباخد حبة منوم وبطلع

بحس الطيارة عم تعن من كتر الشناتي

شناتي تحت و شناتي فوق

شناتي بالخزاين و شناتي بين الرجلين

حتى والله أعلم شفت كم شنتايه مربطة عالأجنحة

كللو بدو هدايا من بلاد برة

خلصنا من الشناتي

آخ من الولاد

كل واحد ووحدة معهن عالأقل ٤ أو ٥ ولاد

الظاهر في خطة سرية لزيادة التمثيل السوري في المهجر

يعني ما بيكفي الطوابيراللي على بواب السفارات؟

طبعآ لأ..لا بد أنو نأسس جيل سوري ولدان بالمهجر

يحكي إنكليزي بدون لكنة accent

مشان نفهم أكتر عالغرب و يفهمونا بقا

والجيل.. و ما أدراك ما هذا الجيل

جيل صراخ وبكي بيطير المخ

من شهرين لما نزلت كان عالطيارة واحدة سورية

بنت حلال معها أربع ولاد وكم شخص من عيلتها

لا تسألني كيف.. بس الأربعة أعمارون يمكن تحت السنتين

يمكن ما بتحبل إلا دبل كل مرة

المهم.. إجا حظي بالقرعة بالصف اللي جنبها

وعيلتها موزعة حواليي

عاليمين و اليسار..من ورايي و قدامي

قامت وزعت الولاد عليهن وخليت معها بنت

ماشاءالله شكلا متل الملاءكة هالقطة

وأول ماسكرو باب الطيارة و بدت تتحرك

بدا الصراخ والعياط والولاويل

الملاك اللي جنبي طلعت عميل سري

لكل شياطين الأرض و السما

هي بتغني وأخواتها بيردو

والأم توقف وتفك الحزام والمضيفة تصرخ بالإنكليزي

For the last time, please sit down and fasten your seatbelt

أغاني أم كلتوم أقصر من غنية هال الأربعة

بس أخيرآ سكتو ونامو

والله نوم الظالم عبادة

أخدت حبة وجع، حاولت نام، ما قدرت

إجا الأكل.. جاج أو معكرونة مع سلطة و كيك و قطعة خبز

أكلت بالمطار بس أد مانتفض بدني جعت

بنص الأكل لقيت المضيفات عم يركضو من مقعد لمقعد

كللو بدو أكل كمان و أهم شي الخبز

يمكن هي جزء من خطة سرية تانية كمان

ناكل كلشي عالطيارات الأجنبية

بركي بيفلسو وبيزيد شغل الطيارات الوطنية

و بيقولو مافي عنا تخطيط!!!

المسكينة المضيفة بالأخير حملت صينية الخبز الفاضية

و رفعتها أدام كل الزباين و أعلنت

No more food, and definitely no more bread

رجعت الملاك اللي جنبي تصرخ هي و إخواتها

وبديت أنا إصرخ

ولي... شو خلص الخبز؟

ضجران

2009-08-01T11:33:00.028-04:00

أعد مع موظفاتي بهالشغل

عم بعمل حساباتي

وجعوني عيوني من البحلقة

بالأرقام و إيميلاتي

اتطلعت لبرة.... الشارع حلو

و الجنينة اللي عليه أحلى

طيب يا مصروع روح تمشى بهالجنينة

إنت وشي واحدة كحلى؟

ما بدي. والله مابدي

بدي روح عالشام

شم الدخان
وبحلق بالنسوان
جمال و أنوثة بس بيلبسوا ألوان بتقرف

شو صار للذوق ببلدنا؟ شي بيخوف

كل شي بيلبسوه ممعوط و ملون

والشباب كمان أضرط و ألعن

جينز ديق

و قمصان أديق

و بيهزو أفاهن أكتر من النسوان

روحوا شوفوهون بالشعلان

ومع هيك لسه بدي إرجع

بدي روح شم ريحة المخلل والزيتون

والشاورما والفلافل والليمون

بدي إتخانق مع شوفير سوزوكي

وآكل أتلة بقضيب

بدي إطلع على سوق الجمعة

و إشتري كروز دخان تهريب

بدي فك حزام الأمان

وخللي الشرطي يوقفني بالصالحية

أعمل حالي مابحكي عربي

وفرجيه شهادتي الأميركية

بدي إتجوز عالعتمة

الكهربا مقطوعة ولو طلعت مرتي عورة

ولما بتنقطع المي

بدي إتحمم بنهر تورة

بدي إرجع...بدي إرجع

بدي صرخ بالعربي

2009-07-31T18:34:00.017-04:00

كتابة هالمقطع أخد مني أكتر من البقية اللي تحت. عم بستعمل الكيبورد أونلاين

ما بعرف شو بدي إحكي

بس بدي صرخ بلعربي

لك يضرب حظي صاير متل الجاجة اللي نسيت الطيران و ماكانت تتعلم المشي مظبوط

آعد بهالغرفة لحالي

عم بحلق بهالشاشة

التلفزيون شغال وصوت صراخ شارابوفا

هي عم تلعب تنس صرعني

يبعتك حمة

بتعملي ٢٠ مليون دولار بالسنة وعمتصرخي؟

بدي صرخ بركي بعمللي كم مليون

طلعلي فتاق وماصار شي

يمكن لإنو عم صرخ بالعربي

صرلي ساعتين

بكتب بهالسطرين

بيكفي.... بدي خبي قوتي مشان إتجوز

عندك بيت بالشام؟

2009-07-31T01:10:00.017-04:00

If I had a dollar for every time I was asked this question, I'd own that mess of a block in the first picture by now.
Let me ask you this: Why would I pay around 10,000,000 Syrian Pounds (Around $200,000) for a flat in this mess, when I can get something like that house in the other picture for less than that?
Yes, I know it's because of the geographic location. That mess is at home, while the beautiful house is thousands of miles away on another continent. But I also live on that far away continent and only come home for a visit. I'm not saying this will never change. My dream was always to make it back home. I also have my parents house where the only resident living there now is my mom.
On the other hand, real estate purchase in Syria is one of the best investments one can make. When I visited home in 2001 everyone begged me to buy a house. After my last visit this year, I realized this wasn't a bad idea after all. My family house is worth around 6 times more than it did in 2001. Read this report and you'll realize the effect of the Syrian real estate market on the economy. The report states that the real estate and construction sectors employed together a total of 735,931 people in 2007 out of a total active population of 4,945,977, or 15% of the Syrian workforce. In other words, the size of the workforce in real estate is around three times the size of the sector’s share of Syria’s GDP (4.27%). Beyond economics, the importance of the real estate industry derives from the strong impact it has on the social and border development spheres.

Well, as they say back home كلمة يا ريت عمرا ما كانت بتعمر بيت

Traffic

2009-07-30T23:42:00.015-04:00

" Dear fellas, I can't believe how fast things move on the outside. I saw an automobile once when I was a kid, but now they're everywhere. The world went and got itself in a big damn hurry"

I borrowed this phrase from my favorite movie The Shawshank Redemption . So many people, too many cars, trucks, busses...... Damascus looks like a constant rush hour in New York city. Every Damascene household had at least one car. Smog covered the city with a thick dark cloud. When I left home, everyone's dream back there was to own a car someday. Automobile prices were the highest in the world. " Be careful what you wish for, it might come true".

"Driving in Syria is hazardous and requires great caution. Although drivers generally follow traffic signs and signals, they often maneuver aggressively and show little regard for vehicles traveling behind or to the sides of them. Lane markings are usually ignored. Vehicles within Syrian traffic circles must give way to entering traffic, unlike in the United States. At night, it is very hard to see pedestrians, who often walk into traffic with little warning. Outside major cities it is common to find pedestrians, animals and vehicles without lights on the roads at night. Pedestrians must also exercise caution. Parked cars, deteriorating pavement, and guard posts obstruct sidewalks, often forcing pedestrians to walk in the street. Vehicles often do not stop for pedestrians, and regularly run red lights or “jump” the green light well before it changes."

This was a direct quote from the U.S. Department of State Website . It summarizes the chaotic state of traffic in Syria. It justifies my fear everytime one of my nieces walks 100 meters to her grandparents house down the street. Is there a quick solution? I'm not sure. I do know it starts with the people, the drivers.

Going Home

2009-07-28T18:17:00.012-04:00

My brother picked me up at the airport. The streets looked the same except for a few new tunnels and overpasses. The same old stinky smell of manure greeted me at the end of the airport highway. Farmers break sewer lines to irrigate their land and the smell stretches for miles. The car raced through the winding streets of the old city. Ahhhhh..... I'm finally home.

We reached our neighborhood around midnight. The street looked dark and deserted except for the scores of smalls cars parked everywhere. I raced up the stairs to see mom and whoever would be there waiting for me. Mom was asleep on the sofa when I walked in. She openned her eyes and immediately started crying. I looked at her face and barely recognized her. I haven't been home for almost 9 years after all. Mom looked very frail and old with white hair, white eye brows, and wrinkles everywhere. I held back my tears at her sight. She's been a widow for over 27 years and raised us all alone without much help or resources. Now, she can barely walk alone to the bathroom without help. I was always a rebel growing up, and we argued over much, but I always loved her dearly.

I woke up the following morning to the sounds of car horns on our busy street. Walked out of my room to wash and brush my teeth. Mom was in the living room with two other women. I recognized the older one as our second floor neighbor. We've been neighbors for over thirty years. The young lady sitting next to her had a beautiful innocent face and a graceful skinny figure. Her black eyes radiated over a beautiful creamy complexion and perfect features. " She must be our neighbor's youngest daughter, the cream of the crop" I thought to myself. I exchanged greetings with my neighbor and the young lady looked at me then shyed away and stared at the floor. There is no aphrodisiac like innocence. My heart started beating fast, but I dismissed all thoughts after thinking of what age difference there is between the two of us. Mom told me after they left that our neighbor wanted me to see her daughter hoping I would propose. I laughed at the idea and mom had nothing further to say.

To be continued.....